The Apology

Yeah, I know this one may sound hopelessly melodramatic, quite unlike the "inert" me ...But if you're the one for whom this is written, you'll know..

Yes ,in your eyes I'm a criminal
That what happened was unforgivable
Certain things are difficult to show

Yet it's something you just need to know

Yes,with all of my heart I wish
That I could have been more unselfish
There's no reason, no explanation
But no,don't ever doubt my affection

Yes,I know your heart has bled
Won't heal no matter what is said
You won't believe me but I will dare
I need to say how much I care

Yes, I know you're ashamed of me
A true friend, I have failed to be
It was a truly unpardonable mistake
Please forget it for good times' sake

Yes, I know this hurt will stay
Long after we've gone our way
But just one wish, straight from the heart
Forgive me please,lets make a new start

Vagaries of the idle mind..

Its not too tough for the idle mind
To make one's thoughts wildly churn
Not too tough to sometimes find
Oneself posed by a question
Why this,or why not it asks so innocent
Appearing by itself so benign
Torn between alternatives juxtaposed
And solutions not showing a sign
Why me ,and whats my purpose
Says it and throws me a challenge
Am I but a point in the universe
Or serve something by this existence?
Am I but a full stop in this book
Or do I signify some continuity?
Was my presence preplanned by Him
Or is it mere serendipity?
Was it a mistake that I made
Or was it all a part of the script?
Was that sign missing on the road?
Or was it meant to be missed?
Am I the tiny piece in the jigsaw puzzle
That makes the bigger picture complete
Or am I the little note in the song
That makes the melody replete?
Was it so that we praise and laud
The creator's wonderful aesthetic sense
That flowers became so pretty
Or is beauty a mere coincidence?
And thus its not too difficult to delve
Into the vagaries of the idle mind
As it prances like a capricious lamb
Lesser and lesser answers can I find

That li'l jump

When life seems like a bicycle
With its wheels stuck in the mud
No matter how much you pedal
It just refuses to budge
And if you are afraid to touch
Your feet onto to the ground
Fearing they would get soiled..
Just take that li'l jump my friend
And who knows where you'll land!!!

You stand up slowly, muddy and brown
There they come, all sneer and snicker
Forehead contoured , you wear a frown
Then trundle on,pulling yourself together
Face flushed, wish you could disappear
But no, you took that jump over there
Landed safely ,so why really care
And yes,someone's there to hold your hand
Come on, take that li'l jump my friend
Just see where you'll land!!!